I am addicted
I never thought that I would make such a confession in public but I realize that it is for my own salvation.
I am addicted! I am addicted to LAZINESS.
All my life and more so in recent years, I have been incurably and abjectly addicted to being a lazy bum. It has hurt me immensely as it would hurt any other person. I recently realized and confessed this great sin to myself and to this world. It is a horrible way to go through life, and one that ruins all. It is like a progressive disease, which takes hold of you and destroys you slowly and steadily. I can remember all the opportunities I missed and all the hardships that I faced just because I was lazy. If, if only if, I had been more proactive and more responsive to circumstances around me and put my 110% rather than 70% then I could have achieved much more than I currently have. And it pains me a lot. First I was all blaming it on luck and people around me, then after a bit more soul-searching and seeking out the truth, I realized that the genesis of the evil lay a bit more closer to home.
Right now, I am at my laziest worst. I am actually letting go of opportunities and sliding back just so that I do not have to work a bit harder. Being lazy is easy, pushing yourself is hard. I hope that it is not something due to chemical imbalance in my body and that if I consciously apply myself to self-improvement, that I can achieve it. However, there is a factor which works against me : my Genes. Laziness runs in my family tree except a few like my grandma who was as quick as lightning. Past 4 years have been absolutely vicious as far as laziness is concerned, and it has started pinching a lot more than I had imagined, so I gotta get meself outta this trap. If not, I am doomed to mediocrity (which I so hate).
But I am going to take steps, one at a time, and slowly and steadily I'll raise my game and possibly some years down the line reverse the chain of events. I hope that you do pray for me :)
I am addicted! I am addicted to LAZINESS.
All my life and more so in recent years, I have been incurably and abjectly addicted to being a lazy bum. It has hurt me immensely as it would hurt any other person. I recently realized and confessed this great sin to myself and to this world. It is a horrible way to go through life, and one that ruins all. It is like a progressive disease, which takes hold of you and destroys you slowly and steadily. I can remember all the opportunities I missed and all the hardships that I faced just because I was lazy. If, if only if, I had been more proactive and more responsive to circumstances around me and put my 110% rather than 70% then I could have achieved much more than I currently have. And it pains me a lot. First I was all blaming it on luck and people around me, then after a bit more soul-searching and seeking out the truth, I realized that the genesis of the evil lay a bit more closer to home.
Right now, I am at my laziest worst. I am actually letting go of opportunities and sliding back just so that I do not have to work a bit harder. Being lazy is easy, pushing yourself is hard. I hope that it is not something due to chemical imbalance in my body and that if I consciously apply myself to self-improvement, that I can achieve it. However, there is a factor which works against me : my Genes. Laziness runs in my family tree except a few like my grandma who was as quick as lightning. Past 4 years have been absolutely vicious as far as laziness is concerned, and it has started pinching a lot more than I had imagined, so I gotta get meself outta this trap. If not, I am doomed to mediocrity (which I so hate).
But I am going to take steps, one at a time, and slowly and steadily I'll raise my game and possibly some years down the line reverse the chain of events. I hope that you do pray for me :)
posted by Sameer Saproo | 5:21 PM
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